After so many obstacles, am I back to square one? I had stand-by, defending, trusting, believing you. All came back to square one again?

Do I deserve this at all?

I had thought through the night, I know, I can predict the reaction if I asked you abt it, but even so, I can't just let it be! How can I?

This is the worst I could take, seriously. Just simply thinking of what I had saw, I felt pain on my chest, real pain. So my efforts went down the drain? I don't know, it seems like it's useless regardless how much I had tried to help you. You said you treasure friendship, you cherish people around you, but after what I had saw, I don't think you did. I chose to not tell anybody, at least yet, because I'm still holding to the edge of the word called "HOPE". I seriously wish that after this episode, everything will be back to normal, and you'll find true self.

If you don't give yourself a chance, if you don't wish to be helped, no matter how many hands are willing to help you up, you'll still fail to stand.

Humans, why can't one learn to be contented? Why can't everybody think in other's shoe? Why must others suffer because of such people?!

I don't know how long I can take such blows, I'm a human, I've got feelings. I'm not a robot which does not fear of getting hurt emotionally. If only you are willing to help me to HELP YOURSELF.

Because of you, I cried the whole night, I couldn't have a proper rest, I did not even catch a wink. What else do you want from me? Haven't I gave enough? Haven't I tried to communicate? Haven't I put enough effort? Can you please give me a treatment that I deserve, please?