I think it is relatively unfair if I had gave choices, and then end up being cheated. I don't like that feeling, and I am very angry with that.

I am very tired of planning ahead, squeezing out time. Very tired. I don't feel appreciated at all. I had decided to let things be how it is to be, and I think I will not try to fight for myself anymore. The effort is not worthy.

I had always been a floater, so, I guess I'll just go back being a floater, rather than making decisions and planning my schedule.

I am tired.