I am surprised that I am still reading it, and I am pleased that I don't feel anything when I read it. I suppose the confusion is over, but somehow sometimes I still feel a little uncertain about the issue. hmm..

Work had been horrendous for the 3 days, still counting, 2 days. As usual, my only motivation is the phone call at about 8pm, so actually too much work for me isn't that bad, at least I won't think too much. So far bf haven't fail to call me, or only once when his phone battery is dying, he didn't give me a call, but I am thankful that he let me feel that he is there for me, at least he allows me to complain about things happening daily and consoles/ gives me suggestion or advice. However, I do feel guilty, because he's inside, and I am not suppose to let him worry me isn't it? Then again, I feel happy when he does worries, at least I know that he does cares about me, and was true to me.. =)

I haven't been swimming for 3 wks, and this week it's because of bf. Meeting him on Sat, don't know what time, and I don't want to swim in the morning, I don't like the glaring sun and the very cold water. He didn't want to swim with me, because he had been swimming inside. =.= Phobia, actually I can understand that. HAHA! oh, I didn't really like swimming at night too, because I tend to have muscle cramps, and I fear not being seen by others, will drown. Sounds pretty illogical right? Bf and friends will laugh at me if I tell them this, but that was an experience, not happened at night though, but I happened to have muscle cramp often for a period, and after that I didn't dare to swim too far from the edge, also avoided swimming at night.

Sighs, I am getting fatter and fatter! Why? Because recently I bought lots of tidbits. Ah, not good, but I shared them, so not that bad. Still, I need to exercise! Ok, maybe I should just ask someone to accompany me, but when?? =(