One more day to Friday! If only time travel 100x faster. =x

Work is very relaxing this week, until I don't know what to do at all!! The time is as though crawling to 5.30pm. I guess next week will be hell! =.=

I am going back to sectionals today!! =) It feels as though I had not been going to CO for very long, but it's only less than 2 months! It's exactly like love sick for bf, but 'love sick' for CO? hmmm..

Oh! Finally I get to fetch bf from Pasir Ris!! He is booking out only on Sat (wth right!). I told him that I would rather not fetch him than fetching him on Sat. Can you imagine how tiring it is to book out and accompany gf on the same day for one freaking whole day? I understand, but I am selfish in this sense, because I only get to see him one day per week. Super thankful that bf did not hesitate or drop me hints of not wanting to accompany me because he's tired, which he will in the past. I guess he cherish time more now, which is a good thing! =)

September is coming to an end! I can't wait for December, my bonus!!!! awwwww. I am so going to welcome 2011, because by then I'll be taking my driving license, and very very very likely resume piano lessons! Work and study, omg, tiring, but bf says he'll give his utmost support to me (i.e. accompany me whenever I want him to be there provided he booked out). Sweet, I like. It's the weird thing that I don't have much feel for my 21st, can't believe it, but bf is excited for me.. =.=

What a Monday. I am very on the dot to reach the company bus recently, and I don't like it at all. I rather wake up early and take my own sweet time to reach there. The thing is, I'm not the one who is late, it's my sis! =.= Whatever, I hope it'll be better in the coming days.. ><

Decided to start my driving lesson after my 21st. Thankful to bf for being supportive, he told me he won't do anything stupid when I don't have time for him because of my schedule, and will wait for me. =) sweet. Oh, I told him I will blog about what he said, and say that he'll kill me if I do, but I think I don't care, because it is something worth to say it out.

I'm starting to hate Sunday even more. =( Not only that I have to work the next day, bf have to book in!!! Hate this kind of feeling, and I only get to see him on pathetic Saturday. Mixed feeling, because part of me say yay to freedom, another part of me don't bear.

By right I should have started to get use to it, but I actually cried. Seriously, it's pretty stupid, but I couldn't control the emotion.. Sigh.

Caught "Grown Up" at The Cathay, and we only paid $7 each person for the ticket with my Passion card! *CHEAPPPPPPPP!* The show is a comedy, I LIKE IT, but there are parts which are pretty wrong (in the funny way).

Wandered around at Plaza Sing after the show, and unknowingly my watch strike 6pm. Was feeling super sad, how come time past so fast with him??! =( Anyway, by then my feet/ heel is already aching, because we kept walking and walking and walking until his sis came down, I was wearing heels btw. =.= She wanted to transfer ownership of the account, got to know that the procedure can be done at Pargon only, so trained there and had our dinner over there.

It's my first time meeting his sister! First impression is she looks fierce? =x But nah, she's pretty chatty, a nice person. I guess I don't really know her yet, still need alot more time to break the ice. After all, I don't really talk much (right people????!!!), only OCCASIONALLY will be very chatty, and became crazy.

Actually I think I sided bf a little too much on certain issues, I shouldn't have closed two eye, should had fight for my own rights. But I guess, (hopefully) things are getting better, in appearance it did.. OH! bf passed me a print of he and ___, to let me throw away, he found it when he was spring cleaning his (don't know how long neva clear) drawer. LOL!

Overall, I spent my time pretty well today (18/09/10), and I guess it's time for me to SLEEP. Tell you, my bf is super hiong, cos he is not at home sleeping, but currently watching movie with his bunk mates. MID-NIGHT MOVIE, and he's not complaining tired to me!!!!! If the next time I want to catch mid-night movie, and he complains tired to me, I will ignore him and date some other guy to acc me. LOL! He'll kill me, I know, but who ask him to do this to me in the first place right?

ps: Koen Chong, if you're reading this please don't kill me ok? HAHAHAHA! (but I don't think you will la huh..)

I feel sick. Nauseous. Exhausted. Headache. Stuffy + itchy nose.

Seriously, I had at least 7hrs of sleep everyday, and I only have to work till 5.30pm, yet I am always tired, plus now getting sick often. Why is that so? My schedule was even more hectic during study period, and I don't fall sick for more than 1 year! Now I don't even need to worry for my exams, results, etc, so why is this happening? I don't understand.

Work is pretty rushing this week. Of all times, they chose to schedule tedious products to be manufactured when one of us were on leave, worst, there are 3 kinds this week. It is only yesterday when we finally relax, but find time moving too slowly. Oh, and it's my 6th month into working life! I'm aiming to start lessons by the time I reached 1 yr into working life. Not much time to slack, also not much time to save up the amount.. =(

Bf had been sick and very sick. Last week when I saw him, he was having flu. Thursday when he calls me, he vomited, and was feeling very sick. Exhaustion I guess. Made me pretty worried, but like what friends told me, there'll be ppl in the camp to look after him, and he's already a big guy (or rather old guy? =p). Meeting him later, but I feel super sian, because I am not feeling too good either! =.=

If only life is a fairytale.. But it is sad to know that reality is a shit. Sometimes I really hate the process of waiting for future to slowly reveal, I am very impatient to know the outcome. Will I be able to reach to Diploma stage, will I be able to get a good diploma for teaching, will I be able to find students, will I be teaching private or school, will we last till old age, will I be happy, etc.

Rubbish.

Please pardon me, because I am starting to feel sick of my job, and had a very strong urge to change line. But I know me very well, regardless of what line I'm in, I'll be sick of it sooner or later. I am only taught to do my job well, whether I like it or not, because of one BIG word: Responsibility.

As for relationship, I kind of feel weird. Why? Because I start to not mind how long we're meeting. If it was the past me, I would demand to meet in the morning and part only when it's very late at night. I felt surprise when he told me to meet in the mid afternoon, and I agree it without much thinking. I used to mind that we don't talk over the phone for 4 hrs, but now, even for a mere minute, I am satisfied with it. Am I changing for the good or bad?

Ah yes, it's all these stupid things which caused me to be sleepless after I somehow woke up at 6am, and couldn't really sleep because of all these thoughts. Until now I couldn't clear them.

Went to the MINDS cafe at Funan, and had lots of fun. Played the guessing game, the way we depicts the words is super hilarious. Anyway, Happy 20th birthday to Shi Rui! Next will be my 21st! Silent 21st. LOL!! Although I'll only be 21 once only, but I figured out that there is no need to make a boo-ha over it. People are celebrating it as a significant of freedom, but seriously, I had already alot of freedom, you see I can go overseas with only bf, I can go out till late at night, only to inform my parents that I'll be staying out late out of respect, I can even stay over at a friend's house whom I haven't met for 3 yrs till 7am! plus they don't intrude in what jobs, which line I wanted to be in, what I want to do, as long as it's decent. What more freedom do I need, when I already have the freedom of a full grown adult? It's just like any normal day, just a little more love from the loved ones (bf, friends and family) to me, if I can don't work (not taking leave) it'll be even better. LOL!

I am surprised that I am still reading it, and I am pleased that I don't feel anything when I read it. I suppose the confusion is over, but somehow sometimes I still feel a little uncertain about the issue. hmm..

Work had been horrendous for the 3 days, still counting, 2 days. As usual, my only motivation is the phone call at about 8pm, so actually too much work for me isn't that bad, at least I won't think too much. So far bf haven't fail to call me, or only once when his phone battery is dying, he didn't give me a call, but I am thankful that he let me feel that he is there for me, at least he allows me to complain about things happening daily and consoles/ gives me suggestion or advice. However, I do feel guilty, because he's inside, and I am not suppose to let him worry me isn't it? Then again, I feel happy when he does worries, at least I know that he does cares about me, and was true to me.. =)

I haven't been swimming for 3 wks, and this week it's because of bf. Meeting him on Sat, don't know what time, and I don't want to swim in the morning, I don't like the glaring sun and the very cold water. He didn't want to swim with me, because he had been swimming inside. =.= Phobia, actually I can understand that. HAHA! oh, I didn't really like swimming at night too, because I tend to have muscle cramps, and I fear not being seen by others, will drown. Sounds pretty illogical right? Bf and friends will laugh at me if I tell them this, but that was an experience, not happened at night though, but I happened to have muscle cramp often for a period, and after that I didn't dare to swim too far from the edge, also avoided swimming at night.

Sighs, I am getting fatter and fatter! Why? Because recently I bought lots of tidbits. Ah, not good, but I shared them, so not that bad. Still, I need to exercise! Ok, maybe I should just ask someone to accompany me, but when?? =(

Host a BBQ for the botak, and included a surprise birthday cake for a friend. Preparation was pretty tiring, although mum had already did some shopping of grocery for me, I seriously can't handle it well without mum, He Qiang, Jac and Joanne's help. Imagine that even with their help, I still can forget what to get and what I got already but didn't place it on the table at the BBQ. It is very me, for being so forgetful.

Met up with He Qiang, Jac and Joanne in the afternoon to shop for remaining stuffs at Serangoon NTUC, but I guess we were pretty late, all the nice potatos and corns were swept of early in the morning leaving those not nice ones displayed. Went back to my house to start making the ice lemon tea and prepare BBQ foods. We used up one and a half bottle of the Sambal chilli that my maid made, that is alot! LOL.

Thankfully bf meets up with all the others, so I didn't have to walked out to fetch them. HAHA! Had been standing all day, was already pretty tired even before the real BBQ starts. =x Doubt that I am a good host, did not really entertain anyone, cos I was busy walking up and down to get stuffs, as usual, forgot to bring some foods out. =.= Did not managed to see them out, cos I was too busy washing all the stuffs and packing up till 12am... Thought I might finish washing before they go.. =(

Hopefully all had fun, and enjoyed themselves. Thank you Koen Chong, He Qiang, Jac, Joanne, Yundi, Hui Jia, Teck Han, TH's bro, Michelle, Jackson and Liting for coming down!

I just realized that it was already mid sept! It was fast! 2 more weeks to 2nd Anniversary with dear botak, and 1+more months to my 21st! Don't know what to do with my 21st, but I already intended to get leave on the 22nd, and I feel tempted to go into Malaysia! =x Shall discuss with bf some day, hopefully he's on.

ps: I wonder how long I'll take to start my driving lesson and resume piano classes. =.= I have so much things to do in mind, that I haven't even start any since I said I wanted to at the beginning of the yr.

Finally I get to spend time with bf after the two weeks! It's pretty well spent day with him, it's a pity that I did not have camera with me, but I think bf looks ok lei, not exactly funny or weird. LOL! Just that the army hairdresser don't know how to shave properly, there's on hump at the back of his head. zzz. I can shave for him better than that!

Had a movie marathon with bf. Step Up 3 was SUPERB! Felt pretty disappointed for not being able to get the 3D ticket, because the timing was either 9+ show, or midnight show, I don't want to go home so late.. >< Head to Vivo after that, and on the way there, bf suggested to catch another show, so got the Residence Evil ticket, and off to shopping at Daiso!
There's just too many people today, don't really like shopping at too crowded place. =s Went for super early dinner at Marche after walking one round, was super happy when I got to have my calamari! Can anyone tell me where to find even nicer calamari other than Marche???? =x
Residence Evil is pretty nice, just that I am so timid that even when the crows suddenly rush out of a hole, I got scare by it. =.= Don't even know why I agreed to watch it with bf in the first place when I already know it's a zombie show, plus it's a 3D movie!

Oh! Bought a 9 piece mini traditional mooncake home for my family, and my parents were super happy when they saw it! It made me happy, when they are happy. =) Wanted to get the 4 bigger piece double egg yolk one, but I think if I were to get the big one, it's quite alot. Plus, their taste and my taste is so different! It's just pure luck that they liked this one. ><

I just realized that I'm pretty selfish, and not really that understanding. I only thought of myself, now I feel guilty for not letting him be at home resting and spending time with his family. After all, it's his first book out, if it was me, I would have wanted to be at home, and tell my parents what had been like inside, gossip with them, etc. But there's nothing I can do now, the day was already spent. Post this to remind myself that I should not make such a mistake again, and not to be so selfish again. =( He says that he's not a good bf for not being able to spare more time to be with me, then how good am I compared to him? Not anywhere better.

ps: I am sad, very disappointed with myself.

YAY! Bf is coming back tomorrow!!! =D

He say he wants to catch Step Up 3D, so I went to do the booking today and I see wrong timing! I don't know why I didn't realize that Cathay is 24hr time format. End up instead of booking a afternoon session, I booked the mid-night session. =( Worst still, no cancellation can be made! Bf is very sweet, he did not blame me at all when I told him abt it, he only tells me that it's ok, just catch it. I feel super guilty! =( I think it is only right for me to call Cathay and check if I can change, at least do my best. =s

My flu is 2 wks and 3 days old! I haven't caught a flu for so long. argh. terrible. Love sick not like that one lo... I should sleep more. good night all!

Blogging so often suddenly, which also means that I am super bored. =.=

IKEA trip @ Tampanies with Bernice, Chia Sin, Joyce and Su Yee yesterday. It feels as though I haven't meet them for ages, when I had not meet them for 2 wks only. Perhaps CO does make a difference in my life, ok, indeed, I think it did.Anyway, the trip with them is super tiring, but FUN! walked the mall for more than 2 hrs, who wouldn't be tired? But we were all satisfied after and when we have our foods there, esp the ice-cream and chicken wing!!! YUMMY! When is our next outing?? hmmmm...

I think I haven't been sick for too long, that's why now my flu last for so long, and still counting.. =.= But it came at the wrong time!! I want to feast on durians! =((

Can my time skip all the way to Friday? I want to meet bf. =( 3 more days! Sigh..

Went to the COMEX fair today with Florence!! =) It's just too bad that everytime it's only the two of us who meet up. Anyway, managed to get the charger! I got special discount lei! damn happy, cos I did not expect that, since it was already discounted. That is the advantage for purchasing stuffs from your ex-company/ colleague. I was a little disappointed that I got my stuff in a rush, that I did not check the charger properly, because there were just too many people! Wanted the one which I can charge battery in single, not double. Forget it. I'm not the one using it anyway.. =x

It's only the first week after I got my pay, and... I OVERSPEND! Yes. O-V-E-R-S-P-E-N-T. Just remembered that I finished my contact lens, and did not replenish! haix, why do I have astig? If not, I could get it easier at $30 or lesser from Ting.. =( Spent $180 now, with each box costing $45. It is still expensive, but thankfully I don't wear it very often. Hopefully it can last me for more than 6 months, at least I don't have to get any solutions to wash my lens. THANK GOODNESS! But still, I'm living in budget for the next 3 weeks! omg, 难受啊! Spotted a top, less than $20 at City Link, but I considered for more than three times and walk out of the shop. =( SAD. Actually I was pretty regretful for getting that lens.. =x HAHA!

Oh! I was sneezing super a lot today, and my throat was super itchy. =( Falling sick again.. =.=

My new daily routine:
- Get up at 6am
- Train to Boon Lay to catch the company bus at 8am
- Work till 5.30pm
- Train and bus back home by 7pm
- Have dinner and wash up hopefully by 8pm
- Station beside my phone with my laptop for accompaniment
- Chat with my army boy
- Off to bed (usually before 9.30pm)

NO LIFE. On the contrary, it's good for me to sleep early and get up early right? But can I have the choice of sleeping till at least 8am?? =x haha..

My army boy have been adapting pretty well in the army, sometimes I couldn't help, but feels that he is such a big KID, and is a stubborn one. roll eye. Anyway, he's having sore throat too! Probably cause by the super hot weather these few days and from all those shouting.. =.=
The good news is it's only another 6 more days! or 5 days and few hours to be exact.. Whatever. I can't wait to see him again! On the other side, his phone's battery only left with 1 bar! I don't know how long can it last, but I doubt it will last till he comes back to Singapore, and I'll feel super uneasy. =(

Haven't told bf that I haven't got well from my flu which had been on-going for almost 2 weeks! Afraid that he'll be worry if I tell him too much stuff and cause him not able to concentrate on his training.. =( Talking about my flu, I seriously don't know what to do with it! It is just not getting better! I want to 以毒攻毒, but cannot! I had a few small pieces of white chocolate yesterday, and my throat went on protest! Super itchy now.. =/ Maybe I should try on pi pa gao, spam it. =s

On the brighter side, I'm going to meet dear Flor tomorrow!! But haven't got her reply on where to meet yet eh.. >< Going to the IT show tomorrow to get the portable charger for army boy, maybe I can use it until I meet him? wahahaha. =x Finally able to meet up with her after, erm, almost 2 yrs??!!! =.=

Oh, and I made a very big decision. I've decided to... NOT hold any party for my 21st! =) It's really big, because I'll only be 21 for once. Maybe just dinner with different group of friends, because I wouldn't be able to entertain everyone, and I'll be deem as the worst host of the year. Don't want that, ok, I am not even an average host if I were to hold one.. =s Took leave on the 22nd, hoping that bf will bring me into Malaysia for a feast and maybe shopping?? KL!!! Just H-O-P-I-N-G. If not, slack at home, isn't any bad thing. Also, I should be starting my driving lesson by then, had been procrastinating till now! =.=

Ah, sometimes I was wondering if it is worth it putting lots of effort in certain stuff, without knowing what will the outcome be, but I'm doing it for the sake of doing it.. I guess I won't regret it, but will find pity if I ever lose it. Just can't help feeling unfair sometimes, for putting extra effort, and yet the response I get is like as though I should be doing it. =/ Maybe I'm being sensitive again... sighs.