Happy 23rd monthsary together my dear! <3
Blogging mood suddenly gone. Shall just summarize.
- It's the 3rd day bf went in, after two phone calls from him, I think he is enjoying his time there, I'm glad he did.
- I have to wash up and be by my phone by 7pm everyday, in case he calls early.. =.=
- My September schedule is pretty pack!! I'm glad.
- I haven't been swimming lately, maybe I should this Sat, I need to stay healthy and FIT!
- I'm going to be broke this month, maybe I'll start my driving lessons during OCT?
- I need CO to keep me more occupied! =x
Lastly, I need the 2 years to fly!
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My August is a very happening yet tiring one. Super exhausted that my body is vulnerable to catch the flu virus. =( Anyway, I survived through 2 concerts in one week interval in a month! It is the most tiring concert I had ever participated. Glad that the audience thinks that it is a good concert, although I thought we could have done alot better.. =/
Had a pre-NS dinner with CO peeps for dearest bf after the Sunday's concert at Seoul Garden. Regretted for not booking the tables, we end up sitting separately. Thankfully others don't seemed to mind the lousy arrangement by the lousy organizer (me).. =) but we had fun and were super bloated. Oh, I ate at least 2 eggs on that very day. =x We, a few of us were thinking of bowling after the dinner were postpone to the next day, as we're all dead beat. Again, we had fun. Wonder why bf is so afraid of us shaving his hair off.. LOL! He can actually lost focus, and lost to us! funny.
The day have finally arrive. In less than 12 hours, bf is going into army. I had mixed feelings about this issue. I am worried, upset, excited, nervous and anxious for him. I don't know how I am going to cope, but I know I had to even if I could not. But it's 2 weeks long!! The worst record I did not meet him is alot lesser than 2 wks! =( Initially I thought it will just come and go, but now, today, the last day before he goes in, I cried all the way from after work till I reach home! In fact I wanted to cry very much in the morning already, but managed to suppress it. Logically it is silly to cry over such stuffs, but emotionally, I could not help it.. maybe crying more will makes me feel better?
Oh well, please let the 2 weeks fly as fast as possible..
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I had neglected this space for quite sometime, too busy juggling my time between work and my status of alumni in NYPCO.
YES! One concert was down on 13th Aug. All I can say is we stood in the fine line of successful and unsuccessful concert. =/ Whatever, it is OVER, one more to go, haix, feeling super frustrated with the new scores, trying my best to look at the bright side..
Went to Batam with bf the very next day after the concert. In summary, we literally went there to slack. My main itinerary is the spa and massage though... =x the skills were pretty good! I don't mind going there for a day and head to elsewhere for holiday. My very tense muscle at my shoulder were loosen after that, super shiok! There bf taught me how to bowl properly and play billiard as well! Super rusty at both, because it was years since I last played them.. =/ But because of the bowling, I hurt my right hand's muscle. The lightest weight they had was 8 when I can only carry 6.. zzz. Anyway, it is a good time to accompany bf before he went into the army... =(
Oh well, my leave will end tomorrow. I will miss my free time! It is pretty sad that I have to go back to school to practice my erhu for the concert, when I could have slack at home or catch up with some friends. =(( worst still, when hardwork is not paid off, how demoralizing can it be?
It's freaking 8 more days, Koen Chong, my dearest bf will be going into army. How am I going to spend that 2 weeks alone???? =(
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Sometimes I just feel like giving up everything and not bother about a single details. But that is me, I just cannot do it. I hate myself for that. What I did, is not necessary appreciated, and it seriously demoralized me alot. I constantly remind myself that I should do what I want, what I feel that is a need, so that regardless of the outcome, I will not regret, because I did try and do my best. However, I just feel as though I always psycho myself, and the process really makes me feel miserable, because you are very uncooperative.
I don't know how long I can do this, I don't know how long my energy can last to keep up with everything, I only know that if this continues, perhaps, not long later, I will just drop everything. By then, all my efforts will seriously wasted totally. It takes two hands to clap. I can't make things happen alone.
When I thought that it should be a happy event, yet, all I feel now is upset, disappointment and miserable. Sighs. Who can tell me what I should do... =( I feel unimportant at certain times...
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