Hmmm. I've been slacking, and it's super unhealthy!
Cos tests and exams are juz around the corner, but I haven start my revision yet! Tsk.
Anyway, happy belated 21st to norin, and belated 19th to peiqi!

Today went to find Dar at Lakesid mrt station, and head to chomp chomp for dinner.
Dar is very very very greedy, cos he ordered so many food.
End up, he have to settle more than half of the dishes.
活该.:P
Initially I wanted to head to desserts bowl for desserts, but I'm so bloated alr! :(
Oh! Dar is super clumsy. He dropped my phone into fried prawn noodle!
Was very very very angry with him tat I promised him tat one day i'll deliberately dropped his phone into a bowl of laksa.><
Lucky my phone dun have the smell, otherwise he'll get it from me! Lol.

Lastly, tmr I'll be getting back two results. Wish me gd luck! Gd nite..

I'm going crazy!!! =(
I seriously need to sit still and study, so why I can't do that???
GMP, and POO test is coming, haven't study anything.
Continue this manner, I confirm cannot make it!
Sin Ye, PLS WAKE UP! =s

sighs, sighs, sighs.....

I don't understand why it always don't work out.
Problems keep repeating themselves.
I don't know what to do anymore, but I'm sure it's not entirely my problem.
Or rather, not mine at all? =s

Anyway, had a hair cut today. Cut bangs.
Reason being that one part of my front head is going bald...
Need to cover and grow them. Omg, I dunno for how long I've to keep this hair style!
Sis says that I looked lyk Chen Xinyi with my specs on, cos of hair style. =.=
So I have to put on contact lens everyday, cannot be lazy anymore. =(
I hope I won't be laugh at.. Sighs, new yr is coming, with this hair style, omg... =(

It's Saturday. (Like, ohhhhh, finally.)
Spring cleaning in CO rm, but decided to not participate.
I have tons of diagrams to memorise, and to be due by Wed.
I have a topic to come up with, and to be due by today! ><

I know the last time I blogged was last week.
I had a few draft post, but didn't post it up.
Reason: they were incomplete, and apprently, many times, I don't know how to write one post, properly.

Many things happened during the week.
And yes, they were all because of BF.
Somehow, it just seems that we're equally stubborn and different views.
So, it's not very nice, but yet nice in certain situations. =.=
But there'll be lots of argument and I end up losing everytime. (Big Bully)
Even so, the main point is to give and take after arguments, and it'll end up all well.
Sounds very childish.. Zzz.
Hopefully he really knows what's he's doing, and will not take a wrong step. =/
(Don't misunderstand. BF is still very sweet and loving towards me. =) Just my views on him. =x)
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The first thing I did was opening my facebook and saw a msg in the mailbox.
Opened it up, and it's Miss Lim's msg.
It's omg, SWEET!
Totally miss her.
After 2 consecutive night shifts, thought of us, and sent us all the msg.
Sweet isn't it. It's just I think only 2 months of training there, and she's so close to us already. =)
The last time I saw her is during the meet up on ry's b.dae, hopefully there's another outing soon with her. =p
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My poly life is really going to end real soon.
Which is pretty scary.
Because up till now, I'm still finding myself.
I don't know which path I wan to head to.
Sighs, but right now, priority is to memorise everything for exams, otherwise, I'll lose my Dip. cert! =.=

Lets see. It's exactly one week since I last blogged.
Got back all results, except one. ><
Hmmm, overall, I expected it, but was hoping for a miracle to happen.
Obviously it didn't. =.=
Anyway, besides results, it was the open house wk too.

It was so unfair in the sense tat during our time, we still have lessons going on despite of open house!
But this year, all yr 1 and 2 dun have classes!!! Argh.
Ok, it's just a small matter..
Went back to sch on sat for the open house performance.
Was feeling terribly slpy before our turn, probably due to too long break bahx.
Every song oso make mistakes. LOl!
But since it's in atrium, I doubt audience can hear clearly. =.=
Sighs. A few more co practices and it's break till exam over, for a period of a mth.
By then, I'm graduated!
Goodness me.. it's so fast la! I don't like. :(

Haix, ok, I should be revising AIC.
Hate studying this module. (I don't think there's any module I really like anyway..:S)
Last min study, hopefully I'll do ok.
Waiting for Dar's call. He's a tortoise lo. So slow la! =.=

OMG! I can't believe that my phone died.. oO
Erm, not really my phone, but it's dar's almost dying phone! ><
I thought I can sign up my own plan, and get more discount by signing up new line. 4 more mths only lo!!!!
Just my luck. =(( It was still working well in the morning de lo, until I came home.. Haix...
Don't know is dar suay or I suay.. LOL, because it's his phone!! =.=

Anyway, rushed down to M1 shop at plaza sing to get a new phone and re-contract. Sighs.
Got a HTC Magic, hmmm, not very satisfied... Maybe as time goes by, I'll love it?? oO
Mine like a little lag.. LOL.
Sighs, phone die never mind..
The worst thing is that, all my contacts were GONE! ><
Sian diao. Maybe by CNY then will have all contacts bahx.. oO

Anyway, I'm feeling hungry! ><
So weird.. (random.. =x)

Went to meet Ting and Jeryl for dinner at The Creation at Shaw Tower.
And I can't believe that I carp so much. (I don't usually do that.. =p)
Jeryl can't stand me and Ting, HAHAHAHA. Ting is so supportive towards me!!! =x
LOL. Fun day I'll say.
And OMG! Ting's appetite is as small as mine! Ok, maybe even smaller than mine, since she's full after a few mouth. I still can eat more than her! =x

Went to walk around and also to arcade to play the driving one.
It's been don't know how long I last played it.
And haha, it's always Jeryl 1st, me 2nd, and Ting 3rd. LOL.

Went to find dar at the tea house where he work, and while waiting I played the unblock me iPod app.
Managed to solve approx 20 puzzles of intermediate stage in 30 mins! sort of improvement??
Anyway, passed dar my precious earpiece, since his one is going bonker.
Pls pls pls tc of it... ><
And I can't believe to delibrately go down and wait for him to finish work, just to pass him the earpiece and accompany him in the train till Bishan.
But then again, he's abit suay in the sense that he had lost his PSP first day of the yr, and 2nd day earpiece not working. =.=
Hope that things for him will get better in the year, as for this I can't help much do I? =(

Anyway, daddy is going to treat my family roti prata for breakfast at Jalan Kayu!!! =)))
But I have to wake up ard 5plus.. Zzzz..
OMG! I haven't been there for almost 1yr??? Or more than that. ><
There's a small animal farm there, and I love to go there, wonder if I will get the chance to go there tmr.. =p

Ok, I shall have my sleep.
I should be sleeping more soundly tonight, hopefully. =/

Why....

- must I be tan (when I love the look of me being fair)
- must I dress up (I think I do look presentable.. objections?)
- must I be mature (in your context)
- are you insisting that I'm stubborn (when you're too =.=)
- long term relationships can't consist of committment and feelings at the same time
- aren't you learning your mistakes
- quarrels are unaviodable
- life is not as beautiful as fairytale
- am I getting so stressed up
- am I so not motivated/ disciplined
- can't I be as smart as my friends were
- am I feeling suffocated about everything
- do I feel my life is like shit
- am I feeling insecured
- isn't my tailbone healing fast (causing me unable to lean back, or sleep straight =.=)
- can't I manage my time perfectly
- can't I stop giving myself so many stupid lame excuses to excuse myself
- everything is so upside down
- can't you stop telling me you're tired (who's isn't)
- do you always give up so easily
- do you always say that I am comparing past to future (when you're living in the past shadows =.=)
- do I feel being treated unfairly
- I do not feel that I'm the priority
- the online blogshop owner takes so long to reply my email, I want that top very much!!!! ><
- can't you get tickets at least one day earlier
- can't you be more initiative (you used to.. =/)
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Sighs. I don't know why I'm so-called emo, or rather pessimistic.
No idea why would I be thinking all these nonsensical stuffs (according to bf).
All these whys are not important, other doubts too.
Yes, I may appear very cheerful, happy, nothing happen, everything is so smooth-sailing as though life is like fairytale.
But, no, it's not.
Not that they're serious problems, they're all so minor that they accumulate in me, and going to explode like how a bomb does.
Hmmmm, no no, it's rather more like how a vapour cloud explosion occurs. (LOL, ISLP =.=)
You know, accumulate more and more, and when it found ignition source, BOOM! =/
A deadly explosion.

In relationship wise, I'm afraid history of your past will repeat AGAIN.
(since situations are rather similiar, or is it because we're both libras?)
In studies wise, I'm afraid of not able to catch up, I'm seriously struggling already, oh well, since when I haven't =.=
In family wise, I don't know, random things will surprise me (unpleasantly and pleasantly)
Friendship wise, still so-so???

Talking about that, Ting and Jeryl asked me out for dinner!!!!!
YIPEE!!! It's been 4 mths, ever since around my birthday when I last saw them, esp TING!
OMG! I'm super happy!!!

And yes, there's this person, whom, I don't really know, but yet could counsel me when I'm so confused.
Hmmm, just an online friend, he's no other then Mr N. LOL.
He'll definitely makes a good friend, I'll say.

Haish, I'm always downgrading my expectation of a hp.
Why? Because of money. LOL.
I don't know if I should get the same phone as dar, or get HTC magic, both i suppose are more affordable.
HTC Hero is way too out of my budget.
But I don't want people to say I copy dar, or neither do I want to set an impression of me wanting to get a couple phone.
I don't want to make the same mistake again. =(
(I regretted it so much, and lucky for me, it died, and no matter how I coax it, it just won't be revived.)
I just thought that HTC phone are not laggy, otherwise I would already get sony or samsung le.
Or do anyone have any recommendations which brand not laggy??
Actually I'm also considering balckberry. =/
OMG! I seriously don't know. ><

I think this post is long enough and alot of nonsense. =.=
But I can't help thinking all these, because it's there, infront of my eye.
No way can I ignore them. Sighs.

Ps: This post is just purely rants. If there is no unhappiness, one will not truly feels happy.
      No matter what happens, I still love Koen Chong Chee Wei, hopefully it'll be reciprocated though. =/
      And although things are so shit, I still love my current life. =)
      (This is how silly I can be.)

Happy 2010!!!
How did you spend your last day of 2009?
Mine was rather a boring one, because of lab report. =/
Went to meet dar at Vivo at 4, with our initial plan of catching Avatar gone, sian.
Went shopping at diaso, and then head to Marche for dinner.
CALAMARI!! <33
Dar everytime order so many things then cannot finish. =.= So wasted. =/
Bused to my house, and slack.
I seriously won't regret getting my iTouch. LOL.
Played tap tap revenge with him, and he LOST to me!!!! =))))
MUAHAHHAHAHA. Can imagine how happy I am??? (cos he is always saying that I'm not good in it ><)
In overall, half of my day is spent with boyfriend! <3
In other words, I'm contented. =)
It's quite some time since we can spent such a long time together, tat explains why I'm contented. LOL.
Sighs, but there's no PIC! =((( no camera... =/

First day of 2010, is a very super boring day. ><
Stuck infront of tv. LOL.
By right I should be blogging on new yr's resolution, but mine looks more of like wishes. =/
- pull up GPA higher
- Get my driving license
- Maintain or have better relationship with Mr Chong Chee Wei.
- Have more time with family
- Get my new phone! [with budget, maybe I can only get HTC Dream.. =(]
- Save more money!!
- Travel to further countries with dar
- Travelling with Ting & Jeryl*!!! (*edited)
- Change a new hairstyle before CNY '10??? (any ideas???)
- Change my views on certain things (this is a must must must do thing. =/)
That's all for now? hmmm..

My lab partner really mia. sighs.
When school reopen, I'm going to get tired again. zzzz.