Happy 13th month dar!! =)

It's nice to know that you haven't changed for once, still loved me that much.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Was very tired today.
Went down to vivo, wanting to catch My Sister's Keeper, or Love Happens,
BUT NONE WERE AVAILABLE!
or rather the seats were so front!
so end up never watch.
had dinner and went home.
My house estate was raining, and I end up drenched.

I need to slp!
haix. very slpy..
NITE!

I am really tired of keep track, or knowing anything that might hurt me.
Say I'm escaping from reality, because I am.
I can't be bothered anymore.
Is that a good news for you?
I had said my piece long ago.
If you want to continue to do that, I can't do anything either.
Do whatever you wish.
What I can only say is, DO NOT cross over the line.
Keep your hands in your pocket, and think through your brain and heart BEFORE you ACT.

Being sensitive, the reason of it is because there is no solid prove of what you say.
Sorry about that, it's a way of self-protecting.
Miserable but yet, a protection.

Your reaction and answers will be the same no matter how million or zillion times I raise the matter.
So, no point of questioning till you fire up.
I give up, seriously, in this matter.

Sometimes it really made me wonder, ...
sighs. forget it.

YAY! my laptop is FIXED!
reformatted and everything is gone.
my wireless went sot on sunday afternoon, and made me waste half day fixing it. ><
until yesterday night, I finally had it done. =.=
Now, I have to install everything one by one again.
All my pics were gone. =(
So were all the songs. sighs.

It's wk 2 of school alr.
and there will be tests on wk 5.
sighs. I dunno how to study my modules, or rather, how to start. zzz. sian

Somehow, I just feel tired. LOL.
Whether it's working or studying, they are equally tired. Zzz.

Yesterday after school met dar up and head to AMK hub for ICE CREAM!
my 4th ice cream in the wk. =x
Blame the very HOT weather! ><
Anyway, dar regretted allowing me to have that ice cream, cos after awhile, I was a little unwell. =.=
Sighs, I need a body check up soon. Something, somewhere is wrong. =/

Went for combine practice in the morning today, and argh, did very badly, esp after Bernice went of for FYP.
SOBS.
Ok, I admit, sometimes I'll play halfway and somehow my focus will be gone, and TADA! in my dream land.
Need to change this habit. tsk.

Sighs, can I don't do the envision?
It's so tedious. haix.

Firstly, thank you for those who spent sometime to celebrate my birthday with me, sent me birthday wishes through FB and sms. =)
Thank you for the presents too!! =))

Today is a great day, and haha, so is tmr. LOL.
had lecture for 1hr, and that is the end of school for today. =)
went to co rm to prac a little until 11.30am, since it was very early, and I don't feel like going home.
and the weather was so freaking TERRIBLE, thus went to get a stick of ICE CREAM!
wahahahaha. LOL.

Anyway, I was so tired that I was knock out after lunch around 2pm.
Hmmm, was so happy that there's no class in the morning tomorrow!!
hehe, i can sleep MORE. =D

Sighs, had a talk with mum just now.
Even after that, I'm still unable to accept it, I don't see that as an excuse.
Maybe I'm not in her situation, however, the same old words....
"No matter how well you do in your studies, if your attitude and character fail, you are still a failure."

On the happier note, mum mentioned about going to Korea or Taiwan next year!
Most probably boyfriend will come along too!! =))
That will be fun.

Now, tomorrow marks the start of last semester of my final year.
And it's certainly a mix feeling.
The thought of having exams, rushing out reports and DRAW the pilot plant, it makes me feel that I would rather go back for attachment. LOL.
Anyway, wish all the best to me and everyone in the studies.
All studying different elective modules, except some of us were the same.
Will I doze off during lec, and will I start to day dream during tut again??
LOL. hopefully not so. =/

Yesterday met up with Ting and Jeryl, nice to see them again. =)
Thanks for the Oreo cheesecake, and the anklet!! =)

I think I haven't announced this yet. =)
I've got new "eye-candy"!!!
YES. I'm in love with the new Samsung Pixon phone, which the 12MP!!
and it have WIFI too. WOOTS!
considering to get that next yr, 12MP!!
unless I'm cash strapped, then I'll stick to Omnia II, if not, u'll see me grinning from ear to ear with the 12MP phone! lol

ok, this is random =.=

BOO! It is Saturday.
With no combine practice in the early morning feels weird.
although I had ample rest, I still feel sleepy, or perhaps, it's because wearing of contact lens for long hours yesterday. =/

Talking about yesterday, I feel so suay! ><
Initially thought that asking mum to fetch me home, I will be able to rest earlier.
However, I'm so WRONG.
Sighs.
After dropping Joyce near her house and collect notes from senior at my PbP company, my mum's car suddenly broke down!
The car jam stop until about after 2 traffic light later before it was completely dead.
By the time the towing service my mum called came, it was already 11.45pm!
which means, I got home around 12am!
I shall be more hardworking the next time, lug my stuffs and take public transport and walk home. ><
It was sweet of dar to wait for me till I reached home and bathed before turning to bed.
hahahaha. LOVE HIM!

back to today.
Gonna meet up with Ting and Jeryl.
Finally we're meeting up. =)
LOL.
Going to have dinner with them and for me, window shopping, but I'm definitely shopping for Marks and Spencer!!! (dar is going to kill me if I shop for more clothes. ><)

Oh man, school is starting next wk.
Sighs.
Time to get my butt off the comfortable couch and start working hard.

sighs. to think I expect something better than this.
when will I ever get at least an A in my result slip?

no, not expecting A due to so many mistakes made,
but to obtain a B+ shouldn't be that difficult bahx. =/
I suppose many people got A or B+, even my senior told me so.
sighs, I suppose I'll never be able to join that crowd.
and that was quite demoralizing.
my hope of hitting 3 is dashed! =(

Oh well! the fact is that IT'S FINALLY OVER!
the pending of the result is a disappointment.
and I can't feel myself welcoming Yr 3 Semester 2. =s
I predicted that I'll have a hard time memorising those theories all over again,
and the anxiety of tests, ranging from the small quizzes to final exams and to awaiting of release of results..
tsk. I just detest exams to core!

sighs sighs.
I feel soooo BORED! =/

Good luck to Mr Koen Chong for his presentation later.
Do well!! ♥

WHEE! It's wednesday! =)
yesterday I was busy making the 九层糕.
the recipe is a success. The taste was ok.
at least edible and not too sweet.
however, the layers I made were too thin, and turn out to be 二十二层糕. -.-
next time must made it more thicker, and maybe not to reduce so much sugar.
and yay!! I've got supporter le!!
everybody wanna try. LOL.
bhb. =x

omg sian sian sian.
damn no mood. result is still not out yet.
why why why!! ><
I'm eager to know my result.
but so afraid that if it does not hit my expectation I'll faint.
LOL.
pls la.. tolong.. =/

and OH YA! my timetable..
It's... $%^&*#$%^&*
mon and fri i have lesson till 5pm!
ok, mon is not a issue, fri is a issue!
come on, it's fri, and my lesson end at 5?! sobs.
tues and thurs till 6pm.
and thurs I'll be so tired out! I have sectional prac till 9.30pm! =.=
wed ends at 3. and, tat's normal. =s
wad a timetable i had. can't go out le la... =(

for now, i wish time reaches 5pm fast enough. LOL.
I wan to meet bf and see my friends. =)
I'm bored to death at home. =.=

ok, now for the updates of the Genting trip.


Thurs night, dar came to stay over for one night in my house's guest room.
and mum sent us to Golden mile to board our bus in the early morning.

We were so lucky that we get to board the Executive tour bus, and it's COMFY!
There's personal TV entertainment for each seats. =)
and I got to catch the Chiwawa show that I did not manage to catch in the cinema. *grins*
The journey all the way to Genting is however quite boring!
Thus, to occupy myself, I kept disturbing dar when he's playing PSP. =x

Finally we reached Genting Highland at 1pm, dar say it's the fastest bus he ever sat.
I still think that the journey is a little too long. LOL.
It's my first time in Genting when it is sooo misty! and brrrrrr.. VERY COLD.
Settled our lunch in pizza hut, and it's yummy!!
Checked in our room at 2pm, and off we went to explore the First World shopping mall and indoor theme park.

The indoor theme park is rather boring, more for little kids.
Went for the fish spa plus head and shoulder massage.
it's NICE!!! =)
and the fish spa is quite ticklish. =/

On Sat, went for buffet breakfast!
and tsk. the food is not to my liking!
only the Mango juice and honey stars is something that I liked. =.=
anyway, after breakfast, we head to the outdoor theme park!! =)
sat in the pirate ship ride, roller coaster ride, go kart, and a try in the archery. =)
a pity that it started to rain heavily halfway.
dar couldn't get to get more rides. hahaha.

anyway, went for bowling session with dar.
and i managed to strike once!!
hahaha. dar very hao lian >< cos he had a avg score of more than 100. =p
more bowling session ok dar!! haha.
we settled on KFC for dinner, and I'm so satisfied!!
i love malaysia's kfc. hurrs.

For the last day, slack and went shopping.
checked out, and sighs, the journey back to S'pore is much much longer than going to Genting.

Overall, the trip is nice and fun.
hopefully there's alot more overseas trip with dar and my friends. =)




No matter what, I love my bf =)

I'M BACK IN SINGAPORE!
(missing the cold weather in Genting)

had a great holiday over in Genting,
and bought er, quite alot of tidbits bahx.
(to me, it's alot)
hopefully my friends will like them. hahahaha.
anyway, I can't wait to go back for practices again! lol.

for pics, and updates, I shall leave it for tmr
I am dead beat!

To dar, jia you for your preparation of reports, presentation slides and script!!
you've got 3 more days.
WAHAHAHAHA.

btw, this post is posted at 12.15am!! lol.
post again when I wake up in the morning!!!!
i miss my OWN bed terribly. sobs.

I'm a happy girl today!!!!!
Because, I am going to collect my pay later at 3pm!!
wahahaha.
planning to keep a portion of it to get my new phone next year. =)

Time passed rather slowly today.
Maybe I'm too eager for Friday to come.
hahaha. Yes! I'm out of S'pore on that very day! =)

Hmm, recently added a tutor who taught me chemistry during secondary school period.
He is always posting a lot of interesting Chem/ Phy or sometimes Bio-Chem stuffs in facebook.
And some of those are learnt during secondary school which I had long forgotten about it!
haha, I missed the time when I'm sitting in his class with my tuition mate namely Angelyn, Florence and Xin Ee
We'll gossip, laughed at Jay, and all. hahahhaa. those were the time.
It was this group of people who made me love Science.
They helped me understand a lot. =)
and thus leading me to take up a science related course, but I probably chose the wrong course still.
zzz. anyway, those were the time when a lot of stuffs were so much simpler compared to now. ><

***

there's something I need to edit!!!
my birthday is not 7 days aways, but 14 days away!
zzz. no idea why i miscalculated. =.=

in 7 days time I'm hitting 20!
hmmm.. may time pass slower this yr.
hahaha, yea, cos i dun wanna graduate yet. =x
but NO! i dun wanna to repeat any modules. lol.

today is the first day when i'm really rotting at home.
i dun feel lyk watching tv, can't prac my erhu or piano, need to slp but can't physco myself to slp.
booooo.
for the whole morning i was chatting with ting and jeryl.
and haha, we're finally meeting next sat!!
and and and, i guess i should be able to start prac soon!! =)
however, most prob i'll only be able to obtain my driving license only by next yr. =x
reason: I'M LAZY!! lol.

oh yes! Happy Birthday Angelyn!!! u're 20!!!! ^^

YAY! i'm so much better now. =)
thx TING!! loves loves!!
hahaha.

finally, a first step is taken.
suddenly, i felt tat perhaps, what i chose, what i decided is right. =)
at least perhaps this will allow us to understand each other better.
haha.

OH YA! and mum gave me support.
hahaha. she say my cookies is not bad!!
not lyk my two sisters say my cookie is a failure.
LOL. ok, sort of, but i'm still proud of myself for doing baking today!!
and tat my cookies were edible. =x

i did baking today!! finally. =)
although edible, it's a failure. sobs.
cos it did not turn out how it suppose to be.
ok, maybe it's becos i did not get one of the ingredient i suppose to get.


***


i came across smth which made me upset.
but i chose to believe.
yet again, it's still you.
sighs. ting!!! i need you! where are you?
i need a chat terribly. i need support from you.


from wad i see, there are loopholes.
really, therefore i still choose to trust.
say i'm silly. cos i am.
seriously, it's myself i can't get over.


***


i tink i'm falling sick!!
seriously. sighs. 
very tired today.


chaos.

the posts below, was posted at 12+am!!
lol. so count it as sat's post. =x
anyway, today is boring!!
i'm thinking of getting ingredients today.. hmm..
lol.

I was so damn tired. dozed off on the sofa.
zzz.
Finally tis wk gonna pass.
on wed, going back to PbP company to get my last pay.
and on fri, i'm off to malaysia in a coach!!!
hahahaha. although it's only dar, and not one whole grp of friends (which is wad i wanted)
I suppose it'll still be fun.
after all, it's been such a longgggggg time since i last stepped into Genting. hahaha.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY COCONUT TAN!

hahahaha. pls take note, it's 19, not 18!!

****

had combine practice in the morning, and seriously, I need more practices. =(
around 3+, head to esplanade for performance, and I think I did terribly!!
forget it, its over!! now I'm very worried for the nov concert songs.
must not make big mistakes le. hahahaha.

back to topic. performance ended earlier than initially planned,
thanks to the drizzle. =)
so, went to catch cheng san performance, and at the same time planned for cs birthday celebration
OHHH!! and yes! Suyee came down too!!! so happy to see her, its been quite a long time since i saw her. =)
anyway, we manage to surprise her - Coconut Tan completely. hahaha. so happy. =D
( ok, I think we did, am I right?? =x )
stayed till about 11 and head home.
totally enjoyed myself with them!! =))
hopefully there'll be MORE and MORE!! lol.

***

ok la, from this part onwards, you can choose not to read.
cos its just some personal thoughts.



seriously, I'm wishing for time to be slower from now on.
reason?
- I don't wish to graduate so fast, cos I will miss CO.
[ lol. funny hor. =/ ]

who knows, probably nov concert will be the last concert for me,
unless I'm so unlucky, couldn't get a job, or a place in uni,
I probably can participate maybe one or two more concerts.
(and of cos I may feel happier too, though unrealistic, cos no $$$$ lol)

just like what dar said, there's still some time before this happens, so there is no need to think so much.
however, it's because that is what i felt during attachment period,
when I wanted so much to turn up for practices, but couldn't.
it's just simply too tiring. i can't focus on my work the next day.
I miss practicing with my friends. =/
I will definitely miss hanging out with them too.
sighs.

***

ok, this is random. I'm hungry!
lol. oh well. i shall try to sleep.
tell you what.
I'm determine to do baking soon!!!
yes, most probably on mon.
so who dares to try my cookies??
hahahaha. lol.